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I only find women attractive, so because of my issue, I have a hard time ever getting off, unless i think im attractive. (But on rare occasions I can get lost in a hentai so much so, I forget about it.)
So I tend to crossdress both for my GF and when I masturbate.
Both when solo, and with my GF, I keep an 8 inch dildo in me. (I dont care about riding it so much, as I prefer the feeling of being filled, and grinding down on it, when its all the way in.)
I also use a 12 inch double ended didlo down my throat, both solo and with my GF.
My GF then picks which side she wants to be on, be it strap on, or riding the dildo in my mouth (I prefer the 2nd, as I like the idea of being throat fucked, as it doesnt give as much physical pleasure, so i can imagine my GF is soooooo into it, she doesnt care if I get any pleasure from it. Plus the gaging kind of reminds me of the spasms you feel after an orgasm, so it technically does feel good when turned on.)
I dont always try to climax when I masturbate, so I will sometimes do self bondage, as I love having my hands bound, but that requires i switch to a 10 inch dildo for my throat, as I can then use duct tape to keep it in place. (This took a long time to do, as moving around in weird angles will make me gag too much.)
But if my GF has me all tied up, and uses me to get off, while im just holes filled up, I love it to no end.>Do other people know about it?
A gay friend of mine, who wants me pretty bad, since im such a sub.
A straight friend of mine, who has his own kinks, and we dont really talk abotu them much or anything.
And his GF, who has participated with me, and my GF in a 3 some, both of them on both ends. (Which was great.)>Extra Detail
I've also cross dressed in public, and used butt plugs/vibrators while cross dressed.
My GF always begs me to do it, but I only tend to do it in far away cities, or at anime/game conventions.